So I sit here and wonder why my life is the way it is. Why my son isn't here with me as well as my other baby (that I miscarried a week after I got married). I want a baby more than anything and I just don't see it happening again, and that breaks my heart more and more everyday.The reason for me writing this is because my brother lost his little girl in December 2004 at 2 1/2 months old and he now has a healthy baby boy on the way due in September. Two of my cousins both have babies that are now a year old. It's like everywhere I look people have babies or are fixing to have babies and I want so bad for that to be me. I just feel like this isn't how my life is suppose to be. I feel that I am suppose to have children and that's one thing in my life that I have always wanted. Well I will end this pity fest for now lol but I just felt I needed to get it out.
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